Again I repeat this, having the opportunity to be in the service of Gods Kingdom don't come easy. Often us Christians take it too lightly with the twisted excuse that "next time" i can do it, or "next time" i will be available.
Luke 14: 15-23, Jesus tells us a story of a man having a party and ask his servants to invite his guests. ALL began to make EXCUSES to decline. First one said ''I have just bought a field, and I must go and see it. Please excuse me.'(v18), Another one said "Another said, 'I have just bought five yoke of oxen, and I'm on my way to try them out. Please excuse me.'(v19). Then another one said "Still another said, 'I just got married, so I can't come.'(v20).
This story in the bible basically already gave us a very basic idea of 3 major excuses that we use to decline God given opportunities to be of his service and his kingdom.
1. Posessions - First excuse that was given in v18 was a mans possession. He bought a land, and wanted to see it. Sometimes we are so caught up with the things we have, my new phone, my new car, my new dvd, my new guitar, my new pc, my new game, my lot of earnings. Stuff like that make us loose focus on what is truly important. The posessions we have is indeed for our own use or to bless. But how we use them is another question. In Matthew 20, a man who owned a vineyard used it to provide working opportunities for the poor to earn money throughout the day. He even gave the worker who only worked one hour, the wages of an entire days work. In a situation where he doesn't need to give, he CHOSE to bless people with what he owns. Its a matter of the choices we make with what we are given to own. It is our choice to make our possessions as excuses, or resources to do what God wants us to do.
2. Career/Work/Studies - Second reason in v19 was that the man bought five yoke of oxen wanted to test it out. He wanted to plow his field with the cows he bought. Today, we used excuses such as assignments, exam; need to study, work to say no to serving opportunities. In fact, it is most commonly used. I faced this problem the most. And it is not easy. Nothing is when it comes to God. But the satisfaction of making the harder choice is full. Determination to do Gods will, the outcome is in Heaven.
3. Family/Relationships - Third excuse given was that one man said he got married, and he has to be with his wife. We so often use family as a reason to be unavailable. Myself included. Not so long ago i had agreed to my mother that i will eat dinner at home, but that same day was the birthday of a church mate that i am not emotionally close to at all and there's a plan to celebrate outdoor. I could just have easily said no, my mum cooked my dinner. I'm not trying to boast my response, but to simply show that we can make a choice to accommodate. Instead, you can still eat mums cooking, and still go for the celebration.
Jesus went on to narrate in v21, that the man who has heard of the guests rejections, told his servants to bring in the poor, crippled, blind, and lame. This comes to show us that God does not need us to serve him or do His work on earth. If we said no, God can easily use poor, crippled, blind, or lame people, and can even be a zillion times more effective. I understand sometimes it can be hard. Doubts and worries often clouds our minds when it comes to making the decision to serve Him, and situations gets tougher each time.
In 2nd Kings 13, Elisha in his dying breath told Jehoash to shoot arrows and strike the ground to defeat Aram. Jehoash only strike the ground 3 times therefore condemning himself to 3 times of victory over Aram battles but not completely destroying them, which he would if he struck the ground 6 times. Jehoash did not persevere and keep striking the ground.
Perseverance is a big big part of serving God. The nearer we are to Victory, the further the distance seem to be. Paul is his gospel journey said in Philippians 3, 'I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus' (v14). No matter what lies behind us, forget about it and focus on what lies ahead and most importantly, the prize at the end.
Therefore, I pray that whoever read this will try your best not to decline invitations to participate in Gods service. Its a privilege, not a burden.
Thursday, November 12, 2009
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
In memory of Jason
(Jason Kwan - 1979-2009)As most would've known by now, Jason Kwan has passed away on Tuesday late afternoon Nov. 3rd 2009. Upon receiving the news, i didn't feel surprised nor shocked, rather i felt a sense of calmness in me. Maybe because i was certain even now, that Jason went to a better place. He's with Jesus now. Liberated off the pressures of life, and expectations of society. I don't know why, but somehow i felt that these two reasons are the main factors that contributed to his passing.
Pressures and expectations from society, and this includes family and friends, can be hard for a person to take. From the minute we enter this world, we are taught to be strong, dependent on our own strength, to battle societies challenges such as getting good grades, getting a good job, and getting well paid. Why? because only by achieving those things that society will view a person as useful and successful.
Jason was never a person thriving for worldly success. In the span of our short lived friendship, I actually witness first hand how pressures can affect you, and sometimes, kill you. But Jason fought it hard, though he never did overcome it. He sought help from our lord Jesus, and us. He went through really tough times, affecting his mental health to a point where he greatly needed Jesus' help. Gratefully Jesus worked wonders in Jason, he got better after hitting a life low. I remember ferrying him once to try out for a job interview. He is someone with a bubbly character, suppressed through medication. The only regret i have is that i haven't avail myself to the maximum to assist in his personal battle.
But no one fights alone, Jesus is always around us, and in us. Nobody can be against us, if Jesus is with us. That is what God said, and that is what he did. The manner of which Jason left this world is truly tragic, and we will never know what went trough his mind when he fell. All i pray for is that his family will not grieve too long, instead, take comfort in the fact that Jason left to see Jesus, and its only a matter of time before we see him again.
Jason, you are indeed a great friend. One which i will never ever forget. You displayed brilliantly what it meant to be fully dependent on Jesus. You showed what true faith is. In the battle that you have lost, Jesus has, and will win it for you, as he did when he died for us. I know you're smiling up in heaven now looking down upon us. I will see you soon buddy. Enjoy heavens coffee. I'm sure its a million times better than cj =) Rest in Peace bro..
Monday, October 26, 2009
I Just Don't Feel Like Coming
Being a Christ follower is never an easy task. My 11 years of walk with Jesus, which i still believe is short, i can only describe it as an upward journey fighting against the pounding of sins and personal habits. Being in Penang 3 years, i've only manage to consistently go to a church there for 4 months. Other times it has been on and off and i'm personally very ashamed not only to my fellow believers, but also to Jesus.
But recently I've been asking myself this question. What constitutes a Believer for not going or skipping Sunday church or church activities? I guess there could be many reasons. Most of which I would categorize into one umbrella of thought, Selfishness. Why did i choose this word? Because the meaning of the word literally translates into someone who only thinks of their own advantage. Being Jesus 'freakers', I strongly believe that one MUST, ALWAYS, have the urge to go church. I'll say why.
1. Discipline.Going to church helps keep my spiritual life disciplined. It helps keep myself in check of my walk with Jesus that i so often neglect whenever im facing the world alone.
2. Serve.It gives me a chance to serve Jesus, and my fellow believers. Playing the bass, formerly leading worship, all this is what i see as a small window of opportunity for me to actually give something back in return for what Jesus has great fully blessed me with.
3. Friends.It gives me a chance to see my church mates whom i may not get to see during the weekdays. My church friends whom i hold in high regard regardless of how long I've known them. It can be a 10 year friendship, or 10months, it gives me great joy getting to know more fellow believers that we can spend time with.
Among all three reasons, the third reason somehow stands out as what i think is the most influential factor in deciding on whether people goes to church or not. Being relatively young, I'm obviously referring to the youths. From my observation, friends/enemy/foe/lover/buddies are the terms i use in describing. I've seen people skipping church because they are having problems with relationships. Certain figures feeling animosity with another, the lost of respect a brother can feel for another, the misunderstanding between friendships, or even a simple reason of absence due to the absence of another. I wont go far into details, but this are borderline reasons that i can think of the top of my head.
My question to all that is this, if all those who are facing those problems believe that it cannot be solved by coming to church, can it be solved by not coming?? We live in a family-like environment where we are encourage to be accountable to one another, and most of all care for one another, at least in the simplest form of spending time. How can problems of friendships between believers be solved if one takes on an attitude of individuality. Of cos even within blood-tied family, problems arise, mistakes are committed, hearts are broken. And a member is usually forced to make-up with the culprit, mostly because, they're family. Now why cant we adopt such an attitude? My own brother has countless times cause me disappointments and so have I, but he's family. we make up, and move on. It should be a same in church, if not better. If problems cant be solved by a proper discussion, the next best thing, move on. Take it like water under the bridge, it flows away. Force yourself to do it, because we're family.
Going back to what I said earlier, Selfishness. I've seen my share of people who only goes to church, whether they themselves know it or not, for the sake of their own benefit. Now benefits here can be tangible, or intangible. Tangible for example, say transport. If I'm chauffeured, then i come, if not I'm gone. Another form of tangible reason, keeping a network of friends that could be of benefit one time or another. Untangible reason, this is where it is hard to realize even for a person who commits it. An example i could think off is this, Sunday Youth, well Friday CG in my case. I Skip it easily, Why? because i don't enjoy it. I don't get a personal satisfaction. I don't think i get anything from it because it has never been an area which I'm interested in.
But get a load of this, amidst all this reasons that I've mentioned, I still believe NONE of them makes up for a solid reason to not come. What i think is that all the reasons that i've mentioned from relationships to selfishness, are EXCUSES to cover up for the real reason that "I JUST DON'T FEEL LIKE COMING". Going to church activities actually honors Jesus, and his Love for us. Saying that you dont feel like coming, is the same as telling your lover that I don't want to see you. Which is fine if you're seeing daily, but we're only giving maybe give or take, 10-15 hours in a week out of a possible 84 to Jesus. And that is minus 12 hours a day for sleep.
This being the longest post i've written thus far shows my utter discomfort with the issue. I can only pray it gets better, for Jesus.
But recently I've been asking myself this question. What constitutes a Believer for not going or skipping Sunday church or church activities? I guess there could be many reasons. Most of which I would categorize into one umbrella of thought, Selfishness. Why did i choose this word? Because the meaning of the word literally translates into someone who only thinks of their own advantage. Being Jesus 'freakers', I strongly believe that one MUST, ALWAYS, have the urge to go church. I'll say why.
1. Discipline.Going to church helps keep my spiritual life disciplined. It helps keep myself in check of my walk with Jesus that i so often neglect whenever im facing the world alone.
2. Serve.It gives me a chance to serve Jesus, and my fellow believers. Playing the bass, formerly leading worship, all this is what i see as a small window of opportunity for me to actually give something back in return for what Jesus has great fully blessed me with.
3. Friends.It gives me a chance to see my church mates whom i may not get to see during the weekdays. My church friends whom i hold in high regard regardless of how long I've known them. It can be a 10 year friendship, or 10months, it gives me great joy getting to know more fellow believers that we can spend time with.
Among all three reasons, the third reason somehow stands out as what i think is the most influential factor in deciding on whether people goes to church or not. Being relatively young, I'm obviously referring to the youths. From my observation, friends/enemy/foe/lover/buddies are the terms i use in describing. I've seen people skipping church because they are having problems with relationships. Certain figures feeling animosity with another, the lost of respect a brother can feel for another, the misunderstanding between friendships, or even a simple reason of absence due to the absence of another. I wont go far into details, but this are borderline reasons that i can think of the top of my head.
My question to all that is this, if all those who are facing those problems believe that it cannot be solved by coming to church, can it be solved by not coming?? We live in a family-like environment where we are encourage to be accountable to one another, and most of all care for one another, at least in the simplest form of spending time. How can problems of friendships between believers be solved if one takes on an attitude of individuality. Of cos even within blood-tied family, problems arise, mistakes are committed, hearts are broken. And a member is usually forced to make-up with the culprit, mostly because, they're family. Now why cant we adopt such an attitude? My own brother has countless times cause me disappointments and so have I, but he's family. we make up, and move on. It should be a same in church, if not better. If problems cant be solved by a proper discussion, the next best thing, move on. Take it like water under the bridge, it flows away. Force yourself to do it, because we're family.
Going back to what I said earlier, Selfishness. I've seen my share of people who only goes to church, whether they themselves know it or not, for the sake of their own benefit. Now benefits here can be tangible, or intangible. Tangible for example, say transport. If I'm chauffeured, then i come, if not I'm gone. Another form of tangible reason, keeping a network of friends that could be of benefit one time or another. Untangible reason, this is where it is hard to realize even for a person who commits it. An example i could think off is this, Sunday Youth, well Friday CG in my case. I Skip it easily, Why? because i don't enjoy it. I don't get a personal satisfaction. I don't think i get anything from it because it has never been an area which I'm interested in.
But get a load of this, amidst all this reasons that I've mentioned, I still believe NONE of them makes up for a solid reason to not come. What i think is that all the reasons that i've mentioned from relationships to selfishness, are EXCUSES to cover up for the real reason that "I JUST DON'T FEEL LIKE COMING". Going to church activities actually honors Jesus, and his Love for us. Saying that you dont feel like coming, is the same as telling your lover that I don't want to see you. Which is fine if you're seeing daily, but we're only giving maybe give or take, 10-15 hours in a week out of a possible 84 to Jesus. And that is minus 12 hours a day for sleep.
This being the longest post i've written thus far shows my utter discomfort with the issue. I can only pray it gets better, for Jesus.
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
Uncle Lim Retreat 09
Wanted to talk blog it for quite some time but delayed for many excuses. Well, most would've known, Chee Cun Chong, Uncle Juice-Tin, Kickapoo Joy Juice, Rebekkah, Johnny-sleepy-Jonathan, Freddy Vs Jason, and Me-Soup, all went for a young adults retreat at Goh Tong world, genting highlands. *man i really took some effort figuring all these names. haha shud find something better to do*.
Anyway, we left for Genting around 1pm from church and i had to drive the "aVANza" for the first time, but suprisingly its very easy to handle. haha and i had the pleasure on 'looking down' to other cars, eventhough its just a van. haha But didnt know if there was a special speed limit for a van. so i just started speeding at halfway point. Had abit of a ruckus looking for the right direction but it was pretty much a smooth journey all the way there. I was very excited to "feel the breeze" along the way, even throughout the retreat. the others might even feel irritated over it but i dont care!! its been almost 4-5 years since my last genting trip, and that wasnt even an overnight thing.
Our first dinner there was Bak kut teh in the breeze of genting. haha man it was fabulous! i especialy enjoyed looking for chunky meats, and Justin did that as well. The piping hot chinese tea was amazingly aromatic as well. but i think the atmosphere sorta exaggerated the feeling quite a bit. We went back to the apartment after that and had a short session on how Jesus dwells in our hearts. Turns out almost everyone of us had a pretty nasty study room and living room. haha in other words we don't spend enough time with Him. After the session we were all pretty tired. went to bed right away
Next morning it was breakfast with some very bad bad bad tuna, and then devotion. Personally the first morning devotion was very meaningful to me. I cant really explain thoroughly here, but yes, its my highlight of the entire retreat. I can really feel God's presence and it was so enlightening. later on, we make a move for the mountain top. First stop, Burger King, the thought of having that for lunch already makes all of us hungry faster than usual. Mayb it was Gods way of giving us more tummy space. haha Black Pepper Whopper, i wanted more, but was afraid that i cant walk later. I took some time during B.King time to chat with Jonathan. Turns out he really does work his ass off. for what i really dont know. Just hope he finds his balance in life.
We proceeded to buy tickets for G-force and guess what, we went for old town coffee after that!! But seriously it was no match for the ori in Ipoh. All it did was satisfy my cravings for coffee that day. We paid a short visit to the casino, honestly it was no James Bond casino royale, its more like an opium joint and there happens to be cards there. haha But seeing a roulette wheel for the first time did excite me a little. G-force was next and the movie wasnt worth the money. the only interesting part was the guinea pig remotely locking the vehicle it was using with killer stereo. haha
After G-force we went old town again for dinner. We sat outside to kinda suffer and enjoy the super breezy feel. haha Nasi Lemak, Rendang, Noodles, and hot water all over. haha it was very very nice. Next we had a nice long walk to the van. Along the way we get to see some nice view of KL. Twin Towers can be seen so far away. Wish eeyin was there that time really. I told Justin, it even a nice place to propose. haha
All the crap talk about going for mamak rounds after we reached the apartment was rubbished away with everyone covering themselves with the blanket and sleep. haha Next morning devotion as usual followed by Lunch. Coffee Terrace. wow! I had almost 5 servings of food. But the best of all, the fish with the sour cream mayo. thinking bout it now makes me hungry. The choc pudding that looked life crap was tasty as well. And best of all, we had it for a very very good deal cos of the 50% off. God does have his ways to save our pockets.
Overall, the retreat was indeed relaxing and enjoyable, all those so called "retreat" we went for last time, mostly turned out to be more tiring than relaxing, so its Kinda nice to have one that all of us sorta wanted it to be. Hats off to Cun Chong for making it successful!! I had a wonderful time with everyone, especially nice to have Beckie, Jason, and Jonathan along since i dont get to spend alot of time with them. Hopefully year end we can have another similar one. Camerons mayb.
Anyway, we left for Genting around 1pm from church and i had to drive the "aVANza" for the first time, but suprisingly its very easy to handle. haha and i had the pleasure on 'looking down' to other cars, eventhough its just a van. haha But didnt know if there was a special speed limit for a van. so i just started speeding at halfway point. Had abit of a ruckus looking for the right direction but it was pretty much a smooth journey all the way there. I was very excited to "feel the breeze" along the way, even throughout the retreat. the others might even feel irritated over it but i dont care!! its been almost 4-5 years since my last genting trip, and that wasnt even an overnight thing.
Our first dinner there was Bak kut teh in the breeze of genting. haha man it was fabulous! i especialy enjoyed looking for chunky meats, and Justin did that as well. The piping hot chinese tea was amazingly aromatic as well. but i think the atmosphere sorta exaggerated the feeling quite a bit. We went back to the apartment after that and had a short session on how Jesus dwells in our hearts. Turns out almost everyone of us had a pretty nasty study room and living room. haha in other words we don't spend enough time with Him. After the session we were all pretty tired. went to bed right away
Next morning it was breakfast with some very bad bad bad tuna, and then devotion. Personally the first morning devotion was very meaningful to me. I cant really explain thoroughly here, but yes, its my highlight of the entire retreat. I can really feel God's presence and it was so enlightening. later on, we make a move for the mountain top. First stop, Burger King, the thought of having that for lunch already makes all of us hungry faster than usual. Mayb it was Gods way of giving us more tummy space. haha Black Pepper Whopper, i wanted more, but was afraid that i cant walk later. I took some time during B.King time to chat with Jonathan. Turns out he really does work his ass off. for what i really dont know. Just hope he finds his balance in life.
We proceeded to buy tickets for G-force and guess what, we went for old town coffee after that!! But seriously it was no match for the ori in Ipoh. All it did was satisfy my cravings for coffee that day. We paid a short visit to the casino, honestly it was no James Bond casino royale, its more like an opium joint and there happens to be cards there. haha But seeing a roulette wheel for the first time did excite me a little. G-force was next and the movie wasnt worth the money. the only interesting part was the guinea pig remotely locking the vehicle it was using with killer stereo. haha
After G-force we went old town again for dinner. We sat outside to kinda suffer and enjoy the super breezy feel. haha Nasi Lemak, Rendang, Noodles, and hot water all over. haha it was very very nice. Next we had a nice long walk to the van. Along the way we get to see some nice view of KL. Twin Towers can be seen so far away. Wish eeyin was there that time really. I told Justin, it even a nice place to propose. haha
All the crap talk about going for mamak rounds after we reached the apartment was rubbished away with everyone covering themselves with the blanket and sleep. haha Next morning devotion as usual followed by Lunch. Coffee Terrace. wow! I had almost 5 servings of food. But the best of all, the fish with the sour cream mayo. thinking bout it now makes me hungry. The choc pudding that looked life crap was tasty as well. And best of all, we had it for a very very good deal cos of the 50% off. God does have his ways to save our pockets.
Overall, the retreat was indeed relaxing and enjoyable, all those so called "retreat" we went for last time, mostly turned out to be more tiring than relaxing, so its Kinda nice to have one that all of us sorta wanted it to be. Hats off to Cun Chong for making it successful!! I had a wonderful time with everyone, especially nice to have Beckie, Jason, and Jonathan along since i dont get to spend alot of time with them. Hopefully year end we can have another similar one. Camerons mayb.
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
Living days with coffee and friends, and the cup is always half full..
Living in Ipoh or Penang with Eeyin being away initially was pretty hard. But God really has His mysterious ways of making things look just fine and sometimes, even perfect. This trip home is my first since Eeyin left. I thought initially it would be bad, lonely, not to mention, boring. How wrong i was. But still, i'd love to have her around enjoying everything together =)
Sometimes i realise God take things away to actually give you more. Especially true in my case. Since Eeyin left, many things that i didnt come to know I can do to fill my time beneficially, was revealed to me. One by one like reading, yes i did say reading, organizing my dvd's which made me realise i lost some, bathing my dog, cleaning the car, all this things became very therapeutic somehow. Before this it all comes like a chore.
But the best thing i must say, is actually really really really relaxing my mind with my friends and coffee. Yesterday alone me, win, joy went chang jiang. literally for nothing!!!!!!!! if really wanna give it a reason, maybe just for the sake of saying 'okla', or going out. But i totally enjoyed it. it's like one of the pleasures in life man. And like i told win n joy, this is what i think true, sincere, and loyal friends really do. Just meet even though there's no reason for us to. But of cos if this happens all the time its not a good thing as well. Constructive meetings should also happen time n time again.
I actually silently took some time yesteday during yumcha to thank Our Friend up there after getting such an Epiphany. haha because being content, and happy doesn't require big pay cheques, it doesn't require a glamorous career, it doesn't require a varsity degree, nor does it require living in a fancy city. Yes, all those things i mentioned does help, but it does not ever guarantee. All the wonders of life can be experienced & i believe guaranteed with 3 things, 1. God, 2. Brethrenhood or good company, 3. Content. Maybe just add a fourth, 4._______(Clue: Amoi) I'll let you readers guess what it is. haha
Sometimes i realise God take things away to actually give you more. Especially true in my case. Since Eeyin left, many things that i didnt come to know I can do to fill my time beneficially, was revealed to me. One by one like reading, yes i did say reading, organizing my dvd's which made me realise i lost some, bathing my dog, cleaning the car, all this things became very therapeutic somehow. Before this it all comes like a chore.
But the best thing i must say, is actually really really really relaxing my mind with my friends and coffee. Yesterday alone me, win, joy went chang jiang. literally for nothing!!!!!!!! if really wanna give it a reason, maybe just for the sake of saying 'okla', or going out. But i totally enjoyed it. it's like one of the pleasures in life man. And like i told win n joy, this is what i think true, sincere, and loyal friends really do. Just meet even though there's no reason for us to. But of cos if this happens all the time its not a good thing as well. Constructive meetings should also happen time n time again.
I actually silently took some time yesteday during yumcha to thank Our Friend up there after getting such an Epiphany. haha because being content, and happy doesn't require big pay cheques, it doesn't require a glamorous career, it doesn't require a varsity degree, nor does it require living in a fancy city. Yes, all those things i mentioned does help, but it does not ever guarantee. All the wonders of life can be experienced & i believe guaranteed with 3 things, 1. God, 2. Brethrenhood or good company, 3. Content. Maybe just add a fourth, 4._______(Clue: Amoi) I'll let you readers guess what it is. haha
Sunday, September 13, 2009
Happiieeeeee!!!
Now, its good to know eeyin is settling pretty well in her work place. After a little ruckus during the first day, things are starting to take its place =). Although i do hope she gets a good place to stay. My life looks to be getting back on track as well after a couple days of "focus" on school and studies. Liverpool also having their game back on track trashing Burnley 4-0! Life's good.
Gonna have my first MA exam tomorrow. Television & Society paper. Everyone sounds pretty spooked by it. Afraid that we might not pass the paper. But i don't know why, for some weird reason i feel totally fine! I'm not feeling afraid at all, although there is some personal doubt that i might be toooo relaxed over it. The feeling is like having English exam tomoro. or mayb math for the math wiz. haha Maybe its because i understand the subject well? at least i think i do. nevertheless, i love this feeling! Thank you Lord for it!
After exams im gonna head home!!! Chang Jiang, "Amoi!!!!!!!!! Kopi ais satooooooo!!!" here i come!. haha pardon my enthusiasm. I just love that place so much. I would trade all the Old Town cafe's in Ipoh( well leave one around for my hazelnut coffee once a while) to retain Chang Jiang! Hmmmm, coming weekend Im gonna go Genting Highlands!! man its been years since I've been there. That time would be when i visit my ex sujin in kl with Win and Joy and Jun Kit and then left to Genting for a day trip.
Cant wait to go!! Win keep saying gonna go coffee terrace or someth. i have no idea what is it. but it does sound pampering. haha Casino too! 21 anybody? nah! im not interested. just wanna see how its like now. Although i must say its kinda tempting to place in a bet or two. but its not why we're going there. Plus, we'd wanna make sure we have enough gas money back. haha
Oh, i wanna buy a new phone!! eeyin told me the nokia 5730 is much cheaper in Sg but it is only cheap if Sg people buy la. Ipoh mali fella go there buy still gotta fork out same amount. but i dont care, one day, that phone will be in my hands. Qwerty keypad. haha anyways, thats pretty much it. Ciaozz!
Gonna have my first MA exam tomorrow. Television & Society paper. Everyone sounds pretty spooked by it. Afraid that we might not pass the paper. But i don't know why, for some weird reason i feel totally fine! I'm not feeling afraid at all, although there is some personal doubt that i might be toooo relaxed over it. The feeling is like having English exam tomoro. or mayb math for the math wiz. haha Maybe its because i understand the subject well? at least i think i do. nevertheless, i love this feeling! Thank you Lord for it!
After exams im gonna head home!!! Chang Jiang, "Amoi!!!!!!!!! Kopi ais satooooooo!!!" here i come!. haha pardon my enthusiasm. I just love that place so much. I would trade all the Old Town cafe's in Ipoh( well leave one around for my hazelnut coffee once a while) to retain Chang Jiang! Hmmmm, coming weekend Im gonna go Genting Highlands!! man its been years since I've been there. That time would be when i visit my ex sujin in kl with Win and Joy and Jun Kit and then left to Genting for a day trip.
Cant wait to go!! Win keep saying gonna go coffee terrace or someth. i have no idea what is it. but it does sound pampering. haha Casino too! 21 anybody? nah! im not interested. just wanna see how its like now. Although i must say its kinda tempting to place in a bet or two. but its not why we're going there. Plus, we'd wanna make sure we have enough gas money back. haha
Oh, i wanna buy a new phone!! eeyin told me the nokia 5730 is much cheaper in Sg but it is only cheap if Sg people buy la. Ipoh mali fella go there buy still gotta fork out same amount. but i dont care, one day, that phone will be in my hands. Qwerty keypad. haha anyways, thats pretty much it. Ciaozz!
Thursday, September 10, 2009
When she's gone
Its been two days since eeyin left for Singapore to pursuit her career. I must say although on surface nothing much has changed, subtle changes felt in my daily routine makes it even harder. For instance, I only charge my phone once almost every 3-4 days. Why? cos calls dont come around often anymore. Although smss do come in, i try not to indulge in it due to the high cost of roaming. Therefore it looks as if now my phone has lost its purpose.
To make things better, we promised to skype with each other if possible on daily basis. We had a pretty successful first tryout last night which is good news i must say. But it was cut short due to unfinished errands to run. When i wake up this morning, despite having her sms to wake up to, it doesn't feel the same. She's already at work at 8am where as i only woke up around that time. usually she's the one that wakes up late especially during days which i have classes.
I usually give her a call to accompany my walk to class or back to my room after class, sometimes during bus rides home as well and vice versa, but it is unlikely to happen anymore. But all these changes only makes my desire ever so stronger to remain strong and faithful. And the faith that one day, we will reap the fruits of our labor. I am looking forward to visit her in Singapore coming november.
Hopefully she settles down good there. I hope i settle well here as well. The road seems tougher ahead. God knows when it will get easier..
To make things better, we promised to skype with each other if possible on daily basis. We had a pretty successful first tryout last night which is good news i must say. But it was cut short due to unfinished errands to run. When i wake up this morning, despite having her sms to wake up to, it doesn't feel the same. She's already at work at 8am where as i only woke up around that time. usually she's the one that wakes up late especially during days which i have classes.
I usually give her a call to accompany my walk to class or back to my room after class, sometimes during bus rides home as well and vice versa, but it is unlikely to happen anymore. But all these changes only makes my desire ever so stronger to remain strong and faithful. And the faith that one day, we will reap the fruits of our labor. I am looking forward to visit her in Singapore coming november.
Hopefully she settles down good there. I hope i settle well here as well. The road seems tougher ahead. God knows when it will get easier..
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