zuk fuk lei!!

Finally went pass one weekend without takei. haha although there were definitely people trying to temp me to do it but none succeeded. haha booyah!! hah Ashley, in ur face!!! haha But i must admit, maybe 10% of myself wanted to go takei but now i think the transition to living life without takei is complete.

hmmm, valentines and cny coming this weekend. What to do?? well, definitely valentines is gonna be overshadowed by cny celebrations. Good news for the guys i think?? no need to buy or plan a romantic night. this year its just gonna be vegetarian breakfast and dinner, and mayb some shandy's. But valentines hasn't really been an eventful day for me every year. Most of the time eeyin n i are in kl and penang. this year, cny comes in the way. But definitely wishes must go through.

My cny, no ang pows from family definitely. Aunt passed away couple months back so its gonna be a dry season. the only way to reimburse, is going friends house to house to collect. Would be suprised if i could collect rm50. Din even get any clothes this year considering a celebration is not really in order for my family. will i get a chance to try my luck this year? last year i didn't even play a single game of black jack or cards. And the gambling tradition during cny is sorta diminishing. Not in winsons house though, cny there is like vegas, minus the whores.

Another thing thats surely gonna dampen my cny spirit is definitely my shoot. i gotta finish up my shoot by the end of my cny break which is one week. not to mention, during that break i'd definitely wanna spend some if not alot of time with eeyin as well. hmmm i sure hope God'l help me out a little there by making sure my shoot locations are approved nicely. one good news, my health is back on track after somewhat 3 days of sore throat, fever, flu, cough. Recovered pretty quickly. Had some good combinations of medicines i guess. Anyhow, God be praised for that!

Will be heading home this coming thursday after collecting all the shooting gear. Sure hope win knows how to find his way to my hostel block. Dont want any delays thats gonna cause jams or anything. Wont really update anything until after cny, so until then, happy cny everyone!!!

Gong xi gong xi!!

wtf is wrong with the weather??

Is the end coming? I mean if it is, is the heat the first sign?? Cos it is ridiculously hot outside. I step into the campus bus, its like entering a pressure cooker, i step out, its like im on a barbecue pit!! seriously!!! Wearing a cap don't help shit. Its like cooking my brains. Cant even think straight in this weather. Just feel like turning on the aircon in my hostel which i don't have by the way.

Thank heavens i going home tonight and i can turn on the a/c and just soak in freezing temperature. I even feel like cancelling my appointment with my lecturer to skip facing the heat again. arrrghhhhhh!!!!!!!!! If this is a sign of things to come during cny, i really dunno whether i wanna go visit anybody except during at night.

You wonder why God make indians to have the most hair and place them in the hottest place on earth!! I gotta ask HIm that when i'm dead, it might be because my brains are fried. Anyway, I'm really really cranky right now. Just hope Mr. Prasad wont piss me off later, but he's a nice guy. I wanna go gwee loo country!!!!!!!!! cold cold cold!!!!!!!!

Coming weekends plan.

Will be back by wednesday, so my weekend basically starts on thursday. So whats happening?

Thurdays morning- Go old town cafe to finish up my script. Afternoon will bath the dog.

Friday - Finish one of my readings. Eat cookies. And pass joy my script for her to read and memorize. At night, will probably watch football focus then move to chang jiang.

Saturday - Pass cookies to ey's mum.Practice is for certain in the evening. Night footie time.

Sunday - Church, Youth, Lunch, Home, Chang Jiang.

Monday - Back to penang!!

Obviously there are still ample hours yet still to be filled in those days. but the plans written MUST be carried out by all means. Cant wait to be home again tomoro!!

Another final week of leisure??

Its already 5 weeks into my semester. So far the progress shows exactly what type of person i am. Three papers, Film History, Tv Genre, and Screen Production. I've been slacking like mad for History and Genre, where as for Production, i'm way too far ahead of schedule. In other words, im only putting thoughts and efforts to subjects i enjoy most, which is normal, but bad in terms of responsibility and balance.

Even during my sleep i think about types of shots to use and camera movements. But i cant control it!!! i just love it so much especially my idea is totally backed by my supervisor. But eeyin says its not an attribute of a good student, which is true. But i'm not really a good student am i? Ahhh!!! But i guess its time for balancing my studies back. Dr. Rohani gave all of us homework for History. So i'll have some readings to do when im back home and i gotta make sure i finish it by saturday. Then i'll have to think about a genre to write a paper on for my genre paper. i set a deadline for that maybe on tuesday?

This weekend will be my LAST takei session. Seriously, LAST. At least for the next 10months if i dont learn a new game by then. I doubt L4d will still be hot after so long. The only reason all of us are still playing the game is because Kim is so gung-ho over it. It is still fun of cos, but after she leaves on monday, i'm definitely gonna stop going to takei. Not to mention the money saved could be spent on other things, maybe on another burger. haha

Two weeks till eeyin is back!!! i really really really cant wait, but i dunno if i can see her on the first day. They'll have their CNY things to do, and i'll have mine too. She told me i can have a free iphone if she were to work there for two more years, hmmmm should i?? But an iphone is no substitute for having her close to me. So nooooO!!!!!!!!!! go away temptation. I still want eeyin back!! The devil can take iphone and shove it up his ass. I'd be happy with a torchlight phone if eeyin is around. hehe

hmmmm, koko told me celcom gave him a new laptop, does it mean he'll give me his mini lenovo? he already promised me his phone, will i get a double 2nd hand treats? haha I sound to materialistic here. who cares, its my blog. Those who know me well will know. Home bound later!!! Finally get to use my privilege old town card!!!! Free white coffee!!

5 lions of 500 goats?

Was discussing with Winson and Joy in the car yesterday about the importance of congregational numbers in a church, in our case GMC. I wonder if anyone realize that the numbers in our youth have decrease quite abit this year. Some due to tuitions, some family reasons, and so on. Yes of cos we still have the fun amidst dropping in numbers. But here's the big worry.

Uncle Don always talked about how GMC or any church of that matter suffers from temporal drop either in numbers, or spiritual growth. Its like a M shaped linear graph if im not mistaken. it goes up, then way down before it goes up again. My question is, are we still on the way down, on up?? because the numbers aren't showing much improvement. So how do we know which step to take or what to do besides just doing our best without an apparent direction.

Anyway back to the discussion we had in the car, It struck my mind that may be gmc is never meant by God to be a mega church or grow tremendously in numbers. Maybe it is meant to grow and build individuals, producing special agents for God so to say. Possible isn't it?? Better to have 5 good lions than 500 goats to send into a battle in my opinion. Already by now there are a few gmc bred members that are doing pretty well out there in terms of spiritual consistency. But there are many that left and fell.

Whether i'm one of the lions im not sure. But it is a revelation that im ever ready to accept when it comes to the ultimate fate of GMC.

The one with the doubtful future

Having a family that we often see on tv sometimes feels like a step too far for certain people to achieve. Mum and Dad coexisting happily, dad gets the groceries, pays the bills, reads paper, mum cooks our favorite dinner once we're home, goes for breakfast together in the weekends, and etc. Sadly it doesn't happen often for me.At least not as often as i'd hope it'll be. For certain families, it never happens at all.

Who's to blame? is it the alpha male in the family? is it the money? In the case of the poor, money seems to be the primary reason. Couples argue over each others lack of ability to gain more income. Who says one does not need to be loaded to be happy? truth is, we unfortunately live in a world that requires money to be happy. If you don't, even little thing such as who pays for petrol becomes an argument.

I'm considered one of the lucky few people in the world that i actually have parents that haven't got divorced YET. I say yet because there is still that possibility of it happening considering things aren't going too well for them either. Arguments still happen more regular than the times i go for movies in the cinema. I've seen many other families in my time with similar problems. And many have taken divorce as the exit door. Some with young children, some already grown ups.

It is putting a great amount of pressure on us younger generation when we face the prospects of marriage in the future. It makes us afraid. Afraid on whether we'll make enough money, afraid on whether we can coexist happily for 30-40 years, fear of turning out to be like our parents. A big part of me resent dysfunctional parents for putting this fear into us. My parents included. It seems that the older parents get, the more selfish their thinking will be which leaves us more and more pessimistic over our own marriage in the future. Advising them becomes futile due to stubborn attitudes. Ultimately ignorance is the cure, whether it is short term or long, only time will tell.

I can only pray that i learn from the mistakes done in my elder generations and learn from the best parent of all, Our Father in Heaven. And try to at least give my sons and daughters a more optimistic feel towards their own future.

Almost kantoi today!

Reached Penang at around 11.15 and had a pack of twinkies before i facebook and then apa lagi, tidur!!! after waking up one hour later eeyin called, reminding me not to be oversleep and miss lecture at 3pm, i was like wokey!! and guess wat?? i woke up at 3.15!!! 95% of my senses tell me to just forget bout class and just study in the room. But in the end i still went and thankfully the busses and everything were quick that i reached at 3.35. Very late, but better late than never i guess.

back in my room now, dont really know what to do as i wait for my mamu burger to open for my delicious oblong burger dinner, changed by blog layout abit la. The Mustard seed thing is getting a little dull. Not vibrant enough like that. Superman looks cool there though majestically overlooking my posts. its the 4th week of classes now. I believe this will be my final week of taking things slowly, next week on, i will have to start bucking up and prepare for assignments, readings, and shoots.

So if wanna takei or anything, this weekend will be my last. Last chance of Gung-ho zombie killing spree. Might turn out to be zombie myself if i keep going on like how i did. haha I wonder when will i get to enjoy a good working phone again. Money is a bigbig issue now as i cant afford to spend on a phone at the moment. I might have to wait for at least 5 months if short, and year if its long, nooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Its starting to get irritating that i dont have a proper phone to use, proper in a sense that it has all the basic tech needed for me to run my day, HSDPA, Camera, Notes!, Color!!!!! Looking at a non colored phone really makes me feel so so so so dull!! and dropping the phone is not even my fault. Unless you call taking a shit and wearing my pants back my fault. Korkor, please get ur blackberry fast & soon and let me have your Sony Cybershot Phone pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!! I'd be happy with that phone and i wont even buy a new one. Sigh, Lord!! I really want it!!!!! Help me endure....